I had the hardest time getting back into the swing of things this year. At the risk of trying to be too different I felt inadequate, I had trouble managing my school/extra-school/home life, and I seriously missed my kids and their families from last year. I fell into a slump for a few weeks wondering if all this meant that maybe teaching wasn't for me anymore. I wondered if I needed to try a different profession, but what?! I decided to sit down and make a list of other careers I could have and let me tell you the list was short. I prayed about it for weeks only to realize the answer was I LOVE teaching, I mean really love it. I can't imagine my world without those smiling faces who give you hugs everyday and tell you how awesome and beautiful you are even when you don't feel it awesome or beautiful.
I let myself say "woe is me" for about five more minutes and then decided to get over myself. I know that teaching is for me and I had to realize that I shouldn't let anything or anyone else make me feel differently about it. I picked myself up by the boot straps and decided to turn my year around. First by going back to the way I used to run my classroom. You know what they say, If it ain't broke, don't fix it! Then I realized that I have control over what I do and how I feel. I needed to manage my time better. I have the tendency to be a little of a work-a-colic (sorry, not sorry). I needed to manage my teaching and extra teaching duties better. I won't say that everything is perfect but I'm not dreading getting up in the morning anymore and as I get to know this new batch of kiddos they are bringing me out of my funk. Hopefully by the end of the year I can look back on this post and laugh.
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